Lesson

Probably you should lay down, close your eyes and over think it again and again.
Because every time you do, you don't find peace of mind but a missing piece of puzzle to resolve. Maybe you're too slow, or maybe not mature enough to think it the way you should, or not able to give it one night of tough thinking..
For me, I think you have grown and keep maturing where you find new things you never noticed each time you give it more thoughts.

They'll say for god sake get over it, but you refuse. You can't abandon questions never found answers. But then you realized every over thinking leads to more questions that needs more answers. You did not saw this coming, did you?
You became exhausted, too tired.. you decided to seek the answers outside your thinking zone that it became too much to bear. But then.. it where you found things you were never suppose to know. Where they smash you to the core. Where you lost your mind and couldn't help but deny: This can't be!

Where does the story ends?
A lesson learned that you shall never seek what beyond your acquaintance? That's what you thought, in the past.
Tonight, you over think it again, and you found that you shall never do this again. Not because you shouldn't learn the answers yourself or seek what's far from your reach. But because some questions are left questions for a reason. That tomorrow is unknown for a reason. That mystery is graceful, and always was.